Sunday, January 16, 2011
Invitation To Farewell Party
not no black hole swallowed me. Nor sucked me the witch. Much less the more likely possibility that the earth swallow me (if I believe, be given a tour of Iztapalapa in Mexico City.) None of those things happened to this writer today.
is that suddenly and without water goes, stopped literary contributions to this blog pissed, cause, yet to be discovered. But mainly it's because I did not want. When I felt like I did not know what to write. I spent like when teenagers want to have sex: Sometimes you have nobody but where and when and where, they have no one.
intense last two months I have been brought from a state of agony to one of ecstasy. At this time my meeting the keyboard was just to have evaded for work and my responsibility to write about everything that has happened. The very good and very bad. I'll talk about all this someday. For now I do not want to worry, I'm not dying or anything like that, so that side can go in peace. It's good ... very good, well talk later, because this space is going to use for something else and very nice that they want to tell you, deserves a full space for that and will be later. So we are, who understand, understand.
However I can tell you how very good these past two months, I owe my sister specifically the Red Crayola, which has been a lifeguards in this valley of tears, not only for myself, but also for General and we are grateful from here to eternity.
It's amazing the changes that are in one, in his being and his thinking. The pace of life is so relentless, that basically I thought it was when I was ten, it was like going to be until I die.
False. The way I am today, is far from what it was three years ago. To my sadness, I think many people wonder. Others stopped and miss me and look away. My family especially, I think is the most wonder, but his presence is strong and as important today as it has been forever. The worst thing is that he was surprised more, myself. And is that not to know, but I love him. I love and care so much, that I sometimes forget what others want me fair and square. It is the closest I want and worry, but I myself have been away perhaps unconsciously. So be it.
My mood has been grim few months and has been grim. The environment, the truth is not helpful. We in my country mired in a war like we did not have ninety years ago. Afraid to go out into the street. It's scary to walk in the park and afraid to go out to meet friends.
In this difficult journey, I was accompanied by the General. Sometimes I fee it and other times I load it to me. Sometimes we fall the two and someone tries to charge us, but we can not and will only drag. Other times we pulled up that one can stand, load another and start again.
On the way we lost things and lost people we care, because not everyone understands what we are experiencing. Most of the time between us we do not understand why would anyone else?
Although some people who read me here, I think the hardest thing and what most concerns me, I speak not in either the blog or in person. They are right.
The only time I wrote in these two months than I thought and felt, my beloved companion me censored and urged me not to publish. I think it was right because it was strong.
As if they have reason, I have to open up more. I'm in the process of doing and so far the first experiment in the new year was very good and I left a good impression.
is that we are not what we were, I said the first lady in those days. Definitely right. We are no longer what we were and if they return not to be. Much water has passed under the bridge, I just hope we are on track to become someone better and that the people we care about is there with us.
Our parents and our brothers, thanks for being there. To our friends who are here side and those who expect us to take a step to be with them, thanks for being and not being well. All thanks and although they are not what we were, hopefully these new ones are, we want as before, we want as well, although sometimes it does not seem.
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
Advantages Of Water Cooled Engines Vs Air Cooled
About farewells.
"Hell of living is not something to be, there is one, is one that already exists here, the inferno where we live every day, which we are together. There are two ways to escape suffering.
The first is easy for many: accept the inferno and become part of it to the point of not seeing him anymore.
The second is risky and demands constant vigilance and apprehension: seek and learn to recognize who and what, in the middle of hell, is hell. And make it last, give them space. "
I met wonderful people ... people that teaches you the world and, unknowingly, influences our way, enriching, with thousands of personal nuances. Sometimes they are the ones that open road, give us the compass, we are obliged to follow a path which we do not want, do not want to go. And also, sometimes, we realize that it was THE way. Occasionally, it happens, we discovered that was not the desired path and rectify to take our own course. I suppose that's mature. And I discovered, it's nice to meet, later, with those people, and know that despite not sharing ways of thinking, we admire. We are, we become "old warriors to look at each other without saying a word, they say: " What you gonna tell me that and I do not know " or simply are given an accomplice smile, shake hands and return to being lost forever.
some time, I'm getting ready for goodbye. I'm learning that there are people with bad taste, to leave before us. I must get used to this. Call it a stupid law of life. An absurd law of life ...
And suddenly ... I remember, I come back alive ...
is, look in the mirror, and remind me every few years. Almost one child and be eating, sweet, great golf with a big Tozo of "hand cheese " . You lose to a large fillet of fish from an orgy of tomato, avocado, hearts of palm, cucumber and not knowing where to start. You see me riding a chestnut horse with the heart turned restless bird in the ribs of my chest, and believe the "Lone Ranger" . You know that " The Sound of Music" exists in the voice of Julia Elizabeth Wells, Julie Andrews for mortals. You sneak by the legs of my grandmother to see in the drive-in A Clockwork Orange, yes, mismito of Stanley, when I still did not have 9 years. You take me, my first beer, because the heat made me lead between the red mud and full of howlers insulting flora.
Life has been good to me. It becomes, at least I hope, in a big wave and hit me against the rocks, sometimes raised me until I touch the stars and see the robe of the gods. I guess I'm nothing it originally how we can be original, and looked, suddenly at my past and breathe deep.
I had a guy with a mustache, in a corner filling sentadito like mad, their ever eternal puzzles. A guy with his particular way of walking, you get sent to "peel wedges" , a guy who put my brother wonderful nickname of "Rat Pelu" . I had a guy with a mustache who devoured all the books that came to his hand. A guy with a mustache and hat. A guy who tried to tame my cantankerous aunt, the eye changes according to your mood. A guy who looked deeper, of few words but what he spoke. I had a guy with a mustache and a hat that had a funny smile and character of thunder. It is a "Take 100 dollars to take a beer back in Switzerland, my name" . I had a guy with a mustache and a hat ..., domino player. Magallanero to death.
I
known wonderful people ...
I had a guy with a hat and the words I'm lost ... say you're born with few tears, they say you're born with complete silence, they say that life is a perfume is lost in our hands, say it is a smile that comes varnishing our horizon ...
started writing this clumsy piece of " Invisible Cities" by Italo Calvino . He ended with another one of the most beautiful ending I've read in any novel. This is the final paragraph of his "The Baron in the Trees" .
"... it was an embroidery on anything that resembles this line of ink as I have left running for pages and pages, packed with deletions, referrals, nervous blotting, stains, of gaps, that sometimes unfolds in thick clear grapes, sometimes thickens as seeds in tiny pinpoint signs, sometimes twisting in on itself, sometimes splits, now Phrase refers smooth contours of leaves or clouds, and then stalls, and then returns to curl, and runs and runs and is wound and last cluster involves a fool of words, ideas, dreams, and it's over. "
A Calero Juan Darias. In Memoriam.